Friday, December 24, 2010
22:13:00
Well, 3 weeks of the attachment down. 9 more to go. Not that it's so bad that I have to count down, but... yeah.
It's been a rough week. Not work-wise, there's nothing too much happening there. Personal matters... sigh.
I don't know how to put this out here. I'm just really sad and disappointed. That said, I've experienced worse, in a way. So this time it feels horrible but not that bad at the same time. It's quite confusing, really. Sometimes my brain concentrates on the obvious sadness of being rejected (again...) and I feel like shit, other times it concentrates on the fact that this time things didn't completely, utterly blow up so it's not THAT horrible and I feel... blank.
Problems, problems, problems.
Anyway, it's Christmas. Forgive me for being a little sour about it. To me the whole warm image of being with loved ones that Christmas perpetuates just makes me feel a little worse about my loneliness. Not that I have anything against anyone who's enjoying themselves and completely in the spirit of things; I just reserve the right to be sour on my own.
At any rate, Merry Christmas to anyone who reads this. I hope you're having a better one than I am :)