Friday, November 19, 2010
20:52:00
Today was the first day in ages I got some proper sleep in, although in a weird way. Woke up at 7-ish cos that's how I'm 'programmed', went back to sleep after using the loo. Woke up at 10 or so and got up to eat and watch TV. Went to sleep again at around 1 or 2. Then woke up around 4 or 5 and been up since.
Yea I know it's totally lazy and slothful but with the perpetual lack of sleep nowadays I think I can be forgiven for choosing to be a total pig for the occasional day.
It's also the first time I've really had time to think about things. Given that I already always think a lot about a lot of things, this means that today I thought more than usual. Didn't come to any satisfactory conclusions about anything, and the main thing bugging me nowadays remains as persistent as ever. I suppose there just simply isn't any real solution to it.
Well, I don't really have much else to say for now. I just don't seem to have much to put down in words nowadays, especially compared to the archived posts on this blog. I don't really know why that is. Maybe I'm just tired and weary with life. There's just no more spark. I appreciate hanging out with friends and all, and I'm not trying to downplay their importance in my life, but I just don't have that much of a zest for things anymore I guess. Don't have anything that really gives my life true meaning right now.
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Can good things just fall in my lap for once?
I'm just tired of fighting
I deserve much better than this
So can good things just fall in my lap for once?