Sunday, September 26, 2010
00:54:00
It helped, being out today.
I know all I need is a fresh start, and that'll come with time, regardless of what form it comes in. Till then, I mustn't allow myself to lurch in either direction (referring back to me requiring balance).
It's actually tougher than it would seem. Sitting on the fence certainly sounds and looks easier than having to take a stand, doesn't it? But you have to realize that, for some things, sitting on the fence opens you to attack from BOTH sides instead of just one. Also, sitting on fences isn't exactly very healthy to the groin region =)
I am still a human being, and human beings are inherently and inevitably flawed, so I suppose all I ask for now is that people judge me as such, instead of some robot who's capable of being logically correct all the time. I can be emotional too, and like all humans am well and truly capable of bias. So, cut me some slack huh? Please.
My mind still needs more opening, and reminders of past failures will keep driving me. But it's important for me to differentiate between failures I could've prevented and failures which occurred beyond my control, and be able to move on from the latter. 'Once bitten, twice shy' has defined my life for a tad bit too long now, and the next time I can take a step forward, I will.
Release.