Saturday, February 07, 2009
04:48:00
Ho-lee crap. I just slept 9 hours. Nothing too special about that, except that I meant to just take a nap!I got home yesterday evening, around 6. Dilly-dallied about on the web, before deciding I should get down to studying MOB. Took out all the materials I need, notes and tutorial answers. Felt a little tired so I thought, a little nap will do the trick. Besides, it's Saturday tomorrow so I can afford to study into the night, sleeping late. This was at 7.30pm or so.And then I wake up and it's 4.30am on Saturday morning. What the fuck, right? Even when I oversleep it's usually only for a couple hours more than I intended. Sure as hell not by 7 hours.I guess this just shows exactly how much fatigue I've built up recently. The thing about fatigue is, it just keeps building up, and you don't feel it until something sparks it off. It could be something a friend says that normally wouldn't bother you but for some reason you're taking offence this time around, it could be a song you normally don't pay attention to but suddenly it's capturing your full attention, it could be anything. Fatigue is such a bitch.The worst part of it is, it affects your mood, but not in one fell swoop. If it did in one fell swoop, you'd be more likely to be able to control it. But no, it doesn't. Fatigue is more of a debilitating condition that just pulls you down bit by bit, until one day something lights the blue touch paper and all the built-up stuff explodes.Maybe that's why I've been so irrational and difficult lately. The sad thing is, there's still two more weeks of worry to come, what with tests and exams. On the bright side I'm actually starting to study MOB early; the paper's on Wed and I managed to (only) read through all the chapters yesterday during my 3-hour break. Now it's time to consolidate it all by doing tutorials and reading through the notes more times.Hopefully I can finish studying MOB quick. I wouldn't want to spend any time on it in the coming week. I'll be using that to study the other modules.Well it's 5am now and I'm as awake as a paranoid squirrel who just consumed five cans of Red Bull. Time to get to work.