Thursday, February 05, 2009
22:25:00
Another month-long absence.I just haven't felt like updating for a long time now, but things have been happening.I just... don't know. I think I let my mind get caught up in too many things recently. Either that or just a few things but they were heavy things, if you know what I mean. Somehow I let my mind get way too caught up and 'forgot' to take a step back to evaluate things objectively.I think it's due to that that I've been abit... irrational lately. I apologize to SK and Abby specifically, for being so difficult in recent times. That said, SK, I'm still not wrong man.I'm going to be 'taking a step away' from myself for a little while, just to look over my decisions and reactions of recent times. I'm sure I haven't made any wrong decisions recently, just that I've reacted badly to the problems I've been facing.It's just as well I know just how to do this for myself. It's a form of meditation in itself. Just put on some appropriate songs, lie back on the bed, close my eyes and just think. I transcend from my regular, 'everyday-mind' this way, and I become an impartial figure judging my own actions.I know it all sounds real trippy, but hell, it works for me. Anyway, while I won't be shunning social contact for the next few days, I sure won't be searching for any. I just need to be alone for awhile.I'm a bigger man than this. I really shouldn't be having such problems. But I still am human, after all.