Saturday, December 20, 2008
22:26:00
It feels good being myself again.I spent today just the way I like to spend my holidays: Waking up late, playing video games, then spending the last four hours (as of now) watching movies on HBO.It feels good going back to this 'routine' which is so fundamentally simple (and also quite sad hahaha) yet at the same time well able to satisfy just about all my desires. Helps that those two movies I saw weren't bad. Good Luck Chuck is only so-so, Dane Cook's acting was seriously crap. It's an okay movie to watch if you weren't expecting much at all in the first place. Also, Jessica Alba! =DThe other movie though, was seriously good. Hot Fuzz. It's the only movie I've ever watched that has been able to be both funny and serious simultaneously. Of course, I've seen my fair share of comedies which have their more serious/touching moments interspersed between the jokes, but Hot Fuzz somehow manages to do both really at the same time. What's more, it's really funny, in all sorts of ways. You just can't beat the Brits for comedy.Well, into more practical matters now. I've been having a topsy turvy past few weeks due to a reason that only three people know, and now I'm at the finish line of this crazy journey. Everything's fucked up, it can be said, but at the same time, in the middle of all this, I feel amazingly zen. It's like standing on the rubble of a city destroyed by a nuclear bomb or something, with you being the only survivor. Everything around you is fucked beyond hope, but you feel very much at peace with yourself, despite it all.(Given of course you didn't lose any loved ones in the blast. Horrible metaphor/example up there, I know. Hey, I can't do good all the time, alright? =D)For managing to arrive at this supremely zen scenario, I really have to thank those three aforementioned people. Let's start with Shi Kai:I'm sure you didn't know how else to respond to all the stuff I told you was happening to me besides with a 'holy shit', but that's fine man. Thanks for hanging around and keeping the mood light, that's one thing you've always excelled at. You're still the one person who kept me sane in upper sec, and for that I'll be eternally grateful. Cheers mate!Now, Boon Wei. You're kinda like Shi Kai in the sense that you didn't know exactly how you could help me, but I really appreciate you trying your best anyway. You help me keep being me, so to speak, with all the similarities that have made us such long-time pals. All the cynicism and all that, yet sprinkled with a willingness to live life to the fullest. 10 years and counting old pal :)Finally, the one person who's helped the most, Abygail. Our friendship is seriously weird, as you've mentioned before. Hardly talking in primary school, we hit it off afterwards when we went to secondary school, even though you were still in the East and I had gone to Bishan. Think about it, we've been sharing problems and helping each other for 5 years now. And you certainly came through once again this time around, starting from the 'simpler' stuff all the way through to the convulated conclusion. Even though things don't seem like they ended on a very good note, I can still glean alot of positives from the experience, most of which were taught by you haha. Thanks alot!!As for me now, I really hope that this is the end of this saga. I have a feeling that it isn't, but even if that's the case, with such friends helping me along, I can't go wrong =DThanks again guys. Really, really, thanks :)