Sunday, September 21, 2008
10:56:00
Some... stuff has been happening/happened in my household. I won't be going into it in detail, but it's not good stuff obviously, as you can probably tell from my tone.My brother... Sigh. I don't know man. Maybe he needs help or something.Anyway, it's funny what I get angry at and what I don't. Usually, if you were being screamed at unreasonably you'd be fixing for a fight already, wouldn't you? Oddly enough, for me that depends on the situation itself. I can be screamed at unreasonably and yet come out of it bemused at best, unaffected at worst. And this is coming from the person who almost always rages when his internet fails on him. Doesn't quite make sense, does it, being more angry at trivial things than at the serious ones?Maybe it's because I'm just totally apathetic with human beings in general. It's so easy to read some of them, and it's actually painfully simple (most of the time) to see the motivations behind some of their actions.Nowadays nothing surprises me anymore. What might be an incredible reaction from someone to another person usually is only confirmation of my theories of how that particular person functions on an emotional level; consequently, this means I more or less expect everything. And when you expect things it's very difficult to be affected very much by them, whether they're good or bad things.This takes away much of the magic of life, I think. But as I've said before, I prefer boring ol' knowledge and understanding over going on an emotional roller-coaster whenever something of the sort happens.Stability and rationality are what I want. I'm not the kind of person who delibrately throws himself into shitty situations just for the 'adventure'. To me, such people are just fucking stupid retards. I know I swear alot and it's difficult to tell when I'm being serious and when I'm not, but believe me when I say that I mean the words 'fucking stupid retards' in the their most degrading forms.And before you start thinking 'How can there be such stupid people in the world? You're talking out of your ass Winston', believe you me, there are people like that. People who just make life difficult for others, the people who care about them. Selfish pricks.So I end off on a somewhat angry note. In reality I'm not really angry, although my views are mostly based on events in my personal life. I'm beyond being really very angry at people already. You never can underestimate the stupidity of human beings, after all.