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Winston Zhang
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Sunday, July 13, 2008
01:43:00
I logged on twice before now only to log off again, simply because I didn't feel anything. Of course, I'm talking about the, uh, inspiration to write. When I update for the sake of updating, unless it's something that I really wanted to talk about, it feels empty. First time I logged on, it was like that, empty. 2nd time, I lost the tiny spark I had. And here we are at number 3.
Well, I attended AMKSS's Awards Nite yesterday night. As some of you might remember, I managed to somehow get top in the level for Combined Humanities (SS & History). Up till now I'm still quite surprised (even a little incredulous) at the fact that I actually managed to win this award.
While receiving the award was all very nice, I still have to comment on the poor organisation of the whole event. Powerpoint slide screwups, a guest of honour who couldn't be half-arsed to prepare his speech (and he couldn't improvise either), horrible ushers (they actually had to ask my mum where she was going when she wanted to use the loo. For crying out loud, can't a person use the goddamn toilet without being interrogated?!), a very poorly planned itinerary and my old pet peeve, emcees WHO CAN'T SPEAK ENGLISH PROPERLY AND TRY TO MAKE UP FOR IT BY SLANGING AND ENDING UP MISPRONOUNCING THE SIMPLEST OF WORDS. Someone should tell them that by adopting such a 'tactic', they only make themselves look like fools rather than more professional. Fucking retards.
Maybe it's not just this school (bias would play a part in my opinion then) that commits such mistakes, but I have to say some things about it. Besides a few teachers and the school band, there really isn't anything special about AMKSS. While that's all fine and dandy, the fact that they actually think they're something they aren't just makes it all so unbelievably laughable. Organising big events, trying to be big players, but messing up all the little details and really showing themselves up for what they really are: Wannabes.
If you want to make a splash with a big event, make sure everything goes off without a hitch. Sure, some on-the-spot problems just can't be prevented, but you sure as hell had better expect the unexpected. Contingency plans and alternatives must and should be thought of. It's all cool thinking of the big picture, but if you neglect the little details in the process, you just shot yourself in the foot, my friend.
Maybe that's what I detest so much about the school. It's such a big wannabe that it's embarrasing. I'm not saying that it shouldn't have aspirations to bigger and better things, but for fuck's sake, at least plan each event throughly! It would reflect better if one big event went off without a hitch rather than to have 5 big events but each and every one of them was plagued by numerous minor flaws.
Tsk. Even the most impressive buildings in the world are made of small, single bricks. If you can't be bothered to ensure that the bricks are solid enough, the building's going to fall no matter how beautiful the architecture is. Think about that.
Anyway, rant over. It's hard to believe that now I've actually got two, uh, awards from my time in AMKSS. There's this one, and the other one is the little obelisk-like thing I got from last year's band dinner. Nothing much to say on the band front, I think it's a nice little token and while I went through much in my 4 years in the band, I can glean many positive lessons from it. Not so the school. I laugh at the irony that they have just presented a prize to one of the people who feel so strongly against them.
You know, I think I might have come off as being somewhat arrogant when I received my prize. Most, if not all, of the other prize winners took a bow after receiving their awards; I just walked down and went back to my seat. I don't see the point of thanking a hall of people, almost all of whom I don't know, for something that I earned. I'm not ungrateful though, and I have to thank a handful of teachers, either for their teaching or for the way they helped me, indirectly, to keep faith in my own ideals. Mrs Lai, for one, with her no-nonsense, straight-to-the-point style, but with a touch of care and concern. And, she recognised talent when she saw it.
(Note that I'm not tooting my own horn. Besides me, she also recognised the talents of, for example, Hui Shan and Shi Kai)
I'm not going to go on thanking teachers, no. That was just an example. Anyway, I believe there were more than just a few in the audience who probably never thought they'd see me win such an award. Maybe even one or two (close friends will know who I'm talking about) who probably wished that I would never be recognised for my abilities. The arrogance, that was for them. Obviously I couldn't show them the 'up yours' signal or anything like that, so I hope that they might be able to intrepret correctly what I meant with my demeanour.
Anyway, I really do feel that I've been blessed with the power of the written word. I'm still far from polished, definitely, but I think that it's something to work towards. I do enjoy writing, and being able to notice and enjoy all the nuances of the language makes me feel that English is more than just a medium for people to convey their thoughts and feelings. It is an art.
I currently have very rough ideas for a story... It's quite embarrasing actually, spelling this out, haha. I think I'll be starting on it soon, if only to capitalize on the inspiration thing. Very busy few weeks ahead, what with tests, projects and then soon after, exams to come. I can't wait for the holidays. I've been suffering burnout recently, and I think I really need a long holiday to recharge my batteries. But at the moment that's just wishful thinking.
Time to get my head down and keep pushing again. Wish me luck, haha.