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Winston Zhang
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Sunday, April 06, 2008
17:26:00
Finally got my Friendster up and running again (go go leave comments lol) and I was reading through the (very pathetic number of) testimonials/comments I have.
It's odd... Quite a number go along the lines of 'This guy's a great listening ear'. Of course, that's a good thing, and I'm always happy to help out my friends in any way. I seem to specialise in this aspect.
What is it about me?
Now, what I'm about to say is based purely on my own feelings and thoughts, and without any concrete evidence to back it up:
I seem to be the sort of person that, because I apparently am good at being the listening ear, most friends turn to when they need such a... service, or whatever you want to call it, then outside of it I'm just 'that guy who's nice'. I might be sounding bitter (which I'm not, honest), but it feels kinda sad. I just feel like nothing much more than an Agony Aunt whose name you know.
Of course, not all my friends treat me this way, and it's not like I have something against those that do. I understand, it might be a subconscious thing. When you have this problem, you go to this guy. When you have that problem, you go to that guy. When you want to do this, you go to person A. When you want to do that, you go to person B etc etc. It might not actually be a conscious decision you're making, it might just be your brain automatically sending you in one direction when you want to do whatever.
I don't blame anyone, but it still feels quite sad. I'm like tissue paper; ultra useful and readily available, but when you're done with it, into the dustbin it goes.
Then again, I might be thinking too much again. God knows I have that handicap.