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Winston Zhang
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Monday, January 21, 2008
23:00:00
Well then. Let's jump right into it:
So the big news is, of course, the date of the release of the O Level Results. I'm anxious, to put it simply. There are two sides to this coin, one being, with some sensible calculations, that I would do quite well. The other being the fact that my estimation 'skills' as regards to results totally stinks, and I could very well have everything blow up in my face.
It's scary, isn't it, imagining yourself taking your result slip to see that it has all gone to hell? Very scary. However, whenever I begin thinking along such lines the more sensible part of my brain kicks in and tells me, 'Hey, come on, you can't possibly have done that bad.' and the panicky part replies, 'How the fuck would YOU know?!' and then I have a mini debate in my own mind (doesn't go on for that long, really) until I just say to myself, 'Ok, this'll lead nowhere, let's just go play WoW.'
(Try reading that above paragraph in a humourous tone. I didn't mean it to be that way at first but as it went on it shaped up to become a funny bunch of words :D)
Seriously though, I can't help feeling abit scared at the prospect of it all possibly going to hell. Rational thought points towards anything but screwing up badly but I still can't fully shake the feeling. I guess most people feel that way. I'm sure there'll be more smiles and laughter than tears on Thursday. I just hope that it all works out for me.
It's funny how more nervous I get as the day comes closer. As recently as just a week ago I had the mentality of 'Let's just get it over with quick.'. I still do have that feeling, but now it's laced with some anxiety and doubt.
On top of that I still have yet to fully make up my mind regarding what course I'm going to go to. Alot of various factors I've found out in recent times throws everything into unbalance, and it's come to the point where I just want to see what my results are before making any solid decisions. At least I did give my options careful thought. I really hope everything works out, I'm so anxious. For me the worry doesn't really end after getting my results, I still have to make sure I make the right choices for the sake of my future. And if that's not pressurizing I don't know what is.
I guess there really isn't any cure for this but to just ride out the anxiety and just get it over with once the day comes, then sit down for some rational thought over my future.
Here's hoping it all works out for everyone. Cheers!
Boston - More Than A Feeling
I looked out this morning and the sun was gone Turned on some music to start my day I lost myself in a familiar song I closed my eyes and I slipped away
It's more than a feeling (more than a feeling) When I hear that old song they used to play (more than a feeling) I begin dreaming (more than a feeling) Till I see Marianne walk away I see my Marianne walking away
So many people have come and gone Their faces fade as the years go by Yet I still recall as I wander on As clear as the sun in the summer sky
It's more than a feeling (more than a feeling) When I hear that old song they used to play (more than a feeling) I begin dreaming (more than a feeling) Till I see Marianne walk away I see my Marianne walking away
When I'm tired and thinking cold I hide in my music, forget the day And dream of a girl I used to know I closed my eyes and she slipped away She slipped away
It's more than a feeling (more than a feeling) When I hear that old song they used to play (more than a feeling) I begin dreaming (more than a feeling) Till I see Marianne walk away I see my Marianne walking away
(Beautiful song, listen to it. I apologize for the somewhat poor quality of the sound, and for the big hair, (lolol) but just concentrate on the music and it's all good)