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Winston Zhang
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Monday, March 05, 2007
23:30:00
was just blog-hopping for the hell of it, and i've come to a very... uh... interesting, i suppose, conclusion:
I am FAAARRRRRR from where a person like me should be.
just blog-hopped through some band members' blogs, and they are all similar to quite a huge extent, in terms of content and the hijinks they get up to in their day-to-day lives. then i took that, and compared it to how i view life and how i feel about various things, and i have to say, the contrast is quite startling. i'm different to a fantastically huge extent.
almost every thing i read, and how the blogger felt about about his/her situation, happy or sad, was in direct contrast with how i would have felt about the subject or how i would have approached the subject. it really is very surprising.
come to think of it, how i've survived 3+ years under such circumstances should be an almost impossible task.
don't get me wrong, i'm not saying that those whose blogs i've been to are wrong in how they approach life or anything like that, i'm just saying that how i would have viewed the same event would be a polar opposite to their points of view.
it would be impossible to list all the ways that i'm different; there are too many. but i think i can put the whole thing really succintly in this one sentence: Above all else, I am considerably more cerebral than the general population (in my age group). i tend to think much more than others, which can be both a good thing and a bad thing, under different circumstances.
should i be a philosopher when i grow up? i do wonder. although i definitely don't see that much of a future in such a profession, $$-wise, it would probably fit my personality best. i suppose this is a reason why i'm so 'zi-bi', as many people who know me would describe me. i'm thinking for half of my waking hours.
while people might say 'stop thinking so much; just go do something!', i wouldn't be able to bring myself to do such a thing. i like being lost in thought, whether about mundane things like what i'm going to do later, or about something extremely intellectual, like (for example) how the way some music is played can affect different people in so many different ways, emotionally, i mean.
despite this more bookish side to me, i'm still an ardent football fan, and do take much pleasure in playing the game itself. i don't know what i am. i seem to be a jack-of-all-trades.
i think, the biggest problem for me to solve during my 'lost in thought' moments would be to solve the enigma that is me. i don't even know what i am, exactly. i can't categorize myself into any one group/type of people. perhaps i'm in a group of my own? that would be interesting.
i guess, i shouldn't be too upset if i'm misunderstood in the future. if i don't even fully understand myself, what hope do other people have in the same task? heh.
well, this is one of my more 'philosophical' posts. i believe it is somewhat wordy, but, as before, inspiration hits at the weirdest times for me, and when i have inspiration, the words will just flow.
it really is a weird time for such a thing to happen to me. it's friggin' 11.30pm, i should be in bed. but then, just blog-hopping triggered some thought reflex in my brain, and here i am, typing out my thoughts. i'm one complicated bastard. lol.
to end things off, i'd just like to assure that i'm not belittling anyone or how they do things. i, above all else, believe that everybody has their right to live their life the way they want. so, although i might sound elitist in this post, i have absolutely no intention of doing so.
well, next post will probably be a more regular one. till then, folks. =)