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Winston Zhang
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Monday, March 05, 2007
17:28:00
i'm not sure what it is, but i'm fatigue-ing, and quite abit at that.
well, concert's over. not really in any mood to talk about it; it was so-so for me. disappointed with my solos, but then again it was under circumstances quite beyond my control, so my feeling is somewhere in between disappointed and 'oh well, what could i have done?'-ness, if you know what i mean.
just another week till the school term's up, can't wait. holidays will be filled with band stuff, and, although the schedule IS pretty hardcore, for some reason i'm quite looking forward to it. i think it's cos i have a want and need to prove myself again.
frankly, the only real disappointment i ever feel is with myself, so when i'm feeling down or stuff like that, 99% of the time, the problem lies within myself.
now and then i do think about that, but there really isn't much i can do about it, and anyway, i think my sec3 year has matured my mind to such a degree where the only things i'm really concerned about at the moment is my section, and myself. section-wise, it's the usual practice, and level of the section. for the 'myself' part, however, it's all about finding inner peace.
with the way things are at the moment, i'm not getting enough inner peace. not enough time to myself. what i think i really need now, is a cool night, with 2 or 3 friends (specific friends, i'm thinking of the exact people i would like around), a cool drink, and no barriers or restrictions regarding what we talk about. in short, i think i need a bitching session, of sorts. i don't know. i'm not sure what my head is thinking, but i think i'm thinking about the old meet-ups by the pool, with the Brudders.
sadly, not many such opportunities come along these days. just gotta find an alternative outlet, i guess. but the correct set of circumstances for such an outlet to present itself... that's very rare.
what i mean is, there must be certain specific and ideal circumstances for these outlets to occur. bleah, i'm just talking in circles. but i think you would know what i mean.
well, 9 more games, and i hope we win the title, heh.
I'm just a soul whose intentions are good/ Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood - The Animals' Please Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood