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Winston Zhang
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Saturday, April 04, 2009
21:27:00
I suppose I should let up abit.
It's hard sometimes, having to compromise so much. The fact still remains that I am but human, and am not all-powerful or whatever.
I, every now and then, get too big for my boots. It's like a cycle, you know? I start with my mind really open to other people, willing to give others a chance, only to be disappointed time and again, causing me to become so... angry and high-handed. Then I review my behaviour and find it thoroughly unacceptable and then the cycle begins again.
It would seem that this is something that will not change; I'll have to keep going through this cycle over and over again, hopefully getting some real results out of it here and there. It's just about the best I can hope for, really =/
I have to thank my father really, for the ability to chastise myself and to keep myself in check. He's the sort of parent who's never really satisfied with his children's achievements, always asking them to go for more. If you get an A for a test, he'll want you to go for a distinction. If you get a distinction, he'll want you to go for full marks.
It can sometimes be really infuriating and frustrating, when it seems that nothing you do can satisfy him. But at the end of the day, when everything's done and dusted, what he's done has helped me immeasurably. It has made me demand for nothing but the best, at least in things that I KNOW I can do really well in.
My mum has always been the 'softer' half of this particular parenting duo. She's the one in charge of nurturing and coddling, while my dad is the one who demands and demands. I guess parenting is all about balance.