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Winston Zhang
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Sunday, August 31, 2008
01:49:00
Post number 200... And what better way to celebrate this milestone than with the good news that I've finally arrived in the current generation of console gaming with the Xbox 360!
Yep, got it today at Comex (the IT show going on at Suntec), along with Gears of War (which came with the package) and, the one game no one in their right mind should ignore, GTA IV. Haven't touched Gears of War yet but that's no fault of its own; GTA is just too damn awesome.
So many little additions! So much more realism now! And still with the same brand of humour! To be honest, I thought more realism would mean a slight decrease in the humour, but I'm more than happy to say that I'm totally wrong and the amount (and type) of humour is still in abundance.
It's hard to describe really how I'm feeling about this game, but 'absolutely batshit insane happy about it' would be an understatement. I suppose it helps that my brother wanted to play (he's doing so now) and I'm forced to be kept in anticipation. It simply won't do for me to burn out too fast, especially not with this great game.
Gonna be looking out for more games now! So excited hahahaha
Anyway, in other matters, it's my holidays now, and I'm once again helping out at my mum's shop for some extra money. Got about 1 1/2 months of holidays ahead of me, and I'm sure most of you know how good it feels to know that you've got shitloads of free time to do whatever you want in your hands. I'm just feeling real happy right now, heh.
I was so tired at the end of the work day, but now I'm just filled with so much anticipation of playing GTA that I don't know if I can fall asleep! Haha, just gotta try my best.
Night guys!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
00:15:00
16 days since my last update. Really long, yes, but it still can't beat that one time I posted like, only 2 times in a whole month, haha. Think that was in November last year or something, I can't remember.
I DO have stuff to say, but am really just too damn tired to do so right now. I don't know what it is, but I just have the urge to want to talk right now, to just pour out some stuff. Nevertheless, I really don't have the energy to do so at the moment.
It is kind of a waste, as, well, you know the way my mind works. Writing when inspiration hits and letting it guide me and all that jazz. At the moment it isn't so much inspiration as it is just a feeling of wanting to blabber on and on about a few select topics.
Odd thing is, I'm not even really all that sure what the topics are! Maybe it's just a want/need to taaaaaalllkkkk.
FOM's down. PACC and Econs to go, with PACC probably fucking screwed. I don't even care anymore, really. Fatigue is catching up with me again and at the moment I'm just so goddamn apathetic about everything that it can't be good for my mental well-being. All I care about now is getting these exams over with so I can finally take a long, well-deserved break.
We'll see if I still have the want/need to blabber 2 days from now. I just might, cos I'll have the PACC monkey off my back by then. Wish me luck dudes, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna need it.
Sunday, August 03, 2008
11:17:00
Post 198. Closing in on 200. I probably would've surpassed that milestone ages ago if I updated on a more regular basis, but I prefer quality over quantity =)
Things have been rough recently. I've been down in the dumps due to one reason or another. Sometimes it's this, sometimes it's that, sometimes it's this AND that, etc etc. Quite a few to choose from and then there are the many permutations of those.
I haven't fully recovered from all these knockbacks yet. I'm still very sore, and still not feeling up to much. I have to say though, life (God?) works in mysterious ways.
As some of you might know, music does for me what (usually) people do; accompanying me when I'm feeling good, comforting me when I'm down, and so on. I was running out of 'fresh' material a couple of weeks ago, when I wasn't feeling so morose. And now, when the shit's hitting the fan, I get my 'fix'. I've had these songs for some while now but I never got round to exploring them till recently, and hell, did I pick the right time to do so.
Led Zeppelin is the band that's been helping me through this period. I'm the sort of person that, when faced with problems, would rather delve into them and go into the root of the matter and really just engulf myself in the sadness as a way of solving them. Most other people prefer to forget about things, or find some cheerful side to it, or some other such methods. I really don't know why I prefer my method. Maybe I need to fully face the sadness before I can move on.
Whatever the case may be, Led Zeppelin's more blues-y songs have really helped me out the past few days. I use the term 'blues-y' very lightly, because the songs express something bordering on depression. In other words, REAL sadness. To be able to just get lost in the music they make and just pouring my heart out helps alleviate much of the pain.
Isn't it ironic then, that I got their album from the one person who has done more damage to my spirit than any other person or thing in my short life so far? In many ways the timeline of events was almost that of a successful rock band; you begin small-time, making a name for yourself in some small circles. You move on to being a full-time band, and come up with your first album which goes up high in music charts around the world. You follow that up with a successful world tour which also has its fair share of stories of decadence and debauchery. Your second album is also a success, albeit less so. The third doesn't do so well, and egos in the band start to clash. Eventually the band members seperate, citing 'Artistic Differences', but really things are more personal than that.
That's what happened. Bell curve. Normal friends, then the closest of pals, then the introduction of something I like to call my heart. Differences too big to brush off came next, followed by feelings of betrayal when the shit really hit the fan. Anger and disappointment rounded things off as the two parties parted ways which was 'for the best'. Now all that's left is bitterness.
... Some of my closer friends will know who I'm talking about. She herself should know it's her. What a journey that was. To put things kindly, it taught me alot of things. To not put things kindly, it fucked me up and made me a broken person.
Then again, I wouldn't give the current me up for anything in the world, so in a really weird, roundabout way, I owe her.
Life. Funny thing, eh?
p.s To those not so familiar with the, uh, story: No, we were never a couple. I can see how that might be construed from what I wrote above, but no, we were just friends. Just wanted to clarify things.