Tuesday, January 01, 2008
01:15:00
And so another year has come to pass.2007 was interesting. Ups and downs, with the ups being incredibly high and the downs, well, not too bad.That said, I have had it with secondary school, and am quite glad to be rid of it. Don't get me wrong, there were good points which I managed to find, and those will remain as such, good. However, the overall experience... Unsatisfactory.As a result I look very much forward to the future. I have plans, and if circumstances allow them to be followed through, it would truly be amazing, and a fresh new start for me. I have had some choices to make in recent times, and I have to say, I'm happy with them. I just have to vindicate myself to certain people, but, more importantly, to prove to myself, once again, that I AM RIGHT.It was done once before (for SYF 2007), and I will make it happen again. My mind works in ways truly alien to a vast majority, and I am grateful for the few who understand my quirks. But since my ways are appear to be 'weird', they are generally overlooked and/or dismissed. I've proved myself once before, I aim to do it again.I have plans. Big plans. I think about my future nowadays. Most of my secondary school experiences, I'm throwing away. There's just something about this school and the environment... However good a neighbourhood school it is, it still is a neighbourhood school. Attitudes, environment and the like will always exist in similar amounts, no matter how good or bad the results become. I need an expansion of ideas, an opening of horizons far beyond what this area can afford me. Thankfully I have friends in such positions, and close friends at that too. I'll learn, and I'll do. My plans for my future are of the sort where, if it all goes to plan, could make me a very successful person.I'm ready for the hardships. I want to get out of mediocrity. For now, I am surrounded by mediocrity, almost drowning in it. However, with glimpses at the possibilities I have decided to break away from this place, and the 'ideals', if you can call them that, that it holds.Friends and good memories will forever remain, without a doubt. However, the life I dream of, the level of success I desire, cannot possibly be attained here. First chance I get, I'm moving to the East. It's not just the fact that the environment is more relaxed there, but rather, it's because the air of relaxation is one of successful retirement rather than plain laziness. It's remarkable, and I very much intend to be part of that.I will always keep in mind the lessons I have yielded in my 4 years in Ang Mo Kio Secondary School. However, the main lesson is, Never Again. Never again will I make blind choices which I end up regretting. Never again will I just go with the flow if the flow is against my personal one. Never again will I allow myself to wallow in mediocrity.I know what is best for myself, and I will try my best to get whatever I need, experience whatever I need. I have resources, but it's up to me to make use of them.All that I leave to fate for now, is my O Level results. They don't need to be spectecular. Just let me go where I want, where I need. And I pray that it all works out for my friends too. If all goes smoothly, as planned, the next few years will be quite the treat. Please make it so. Please.I intend to get up in this world. For too long I've been surrounded by narrow-minded (though not necessarily bad) people, right from the start. I want to break free, to widen my horizons, to be a worldly person. A successful, worldly person. I've gotten to where I am based almost purely on blind choices and ignorance. Not too bad, considering that, hah. Still, no more of that. Informed decisions from now on. I'll shape my life, and no one else will. Only me.I just really hope the O Level results are kind to me and a few select individuals. This is, as of yet, the only factor which is up in the air. Everything else from the next step onwards (if the results are good, which I really hope they are) will be of my own making and based on nothing else. Please just let me have this, and I'll make good for it. I swear I will.... At any rate, have a happy new year everyone. I've got my ambitions and plans. Perhaps it would be good if you make your own plans too.2008. Here I come.Winston.