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Winston Zhang
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Thursday, January 24, 2008
23:46:00
Well then, results have come out.
It's odd. Because I want to go to poly, of course I'd look at my L1R2B2, which is apparently solid in terms of the course I want to go. I've a 10, after taking away 2 points for CCA, and that's more than enough to get into the course I want.
On the other hand, all anyone's gonna ask for is L1R5, and I only got 17. Far from anything great. So it's a funny little dilemma of being personally very satisfied yet having to endure people's reactions when you say you got 17 for L1R5. To me, it matters fuck all, but then it does wear you down =/
That said, with the required results in the bag I can now look to the future. This was the only hurdle that was (comparatively) out of my hands, and it's been overcome. So all that's left is finalizing the course I'm going to take, and there we go.
I'm just going to relax for awhile now, at the same time giving careful thought to my choices. Not much left to do for now; I can get back to gaming in peace, haha.
Just a last note: Thanks Mabel, for the talk. Helped quite abit :)
Irene Cara - What A Feeling
First When there's nothing but a slow glowing dream That your fear seems to hide deep inside your mind All alone I have cried silent tears full of pride In a world made of steel Made of stone
Well I hear the music Close my eyes Feel the rhythm Wrap around Take a hold of my heart
What a feeling Bein's believin' I can have it all now I'm dancing for my life Take your passion and make it happen Pictures come alive You can dance right through your life
Now I hear the music Close my eyes I am rhythm In a flash it takes hold of my heart
What a feeling Bein's believin' I can have it all now I'm dancing for my life Take your passion and make it happen Pictures come alive now I'm dancing through my life What a feeling...
What a feeling (I am music now) Bein's believin' (I am rhythm now) Pictures come alive You can dance right through your life What a feeling (I can really have it all) What a feeling (I can really have it all) I can have it all (I can really have it all...)
Monday, January 21, 2008
23:00:00
Well then. Let's jump right into it:
So the big news is, of course, the date of the release of the O Level Results. I'm anxious, to put it simply. There are two sides to this coin, one being, with some sensible calculations, that I would do quite well. The other being the fact that my estimation 'skills' as regards to results totally stinks, and I could very well have everything blow up in my face.
It's scary, isn't it, imagining yourself taking your result slip to see that it has all gone to hell? Very scary. However, whenever I begin thinking along such lines the more sensible part of my brain kicks in and tells me, 'Hey, come on, you can't possibly have done that bad.' and the panicky part replies, 'How the fuck would YOU know?!' and then I have a mini debate in my own mind (doesn't go on for that long, really) until I just say to myself, 'Ok, this'll lead nowhere, let's just go play WoW.'
(Try reading that above paragraph in a humourous tone. I didn't mean it to be that way at first but as it went on it shaped up to become a funny bunch of words :D)
Seriously though, I can't help feeling abit scared at the prospect of it all possibly going to hell. Rational thought points towards anything but screwing up badly but I still can't fully shake the feeling. I guess most people feel that way. I'm sure there'll be more smiles and laughter than tears on Thursday. I just hope that it all works out for me.
It's funny how more nervous I get as the day comes closer. As recently as just a week ago I had the mentality of 'Let's just get it over with quick.'. I still do have that feeling, but now it's laced with some anxiety and doubt.
On top of that I still have yet to fully make up my mind regarding what course I'm going to go to. Alot of various factors I've found out in recent times throws everything into unbalance, and it's come to the point where I just want to see what my results are before making any solid decisions. At least I did give my options careful thought. I really hope everything works out, I'm so anxious. For me the worry doesn't really end after getting my results, I still have to make sure I make the right choices for the sake of my future. And if that's not pressurizing I don't know what is.
I guess there really isn't any cure for this but to just ride out the anxiety and just get it over with once the day comes, then sit down for some rational thought over my future.
Here's hoping it all works out for everyone. Cheers!
Boston - More Than A Feeling
I looked out this morning and the sun was gone Turned on some music to start my day I lost myself in a familiar song I closed my eyes and I slipped away
It's more than a feeling (more than a feeling) When I hear that old song they used to play (more than a feeling) I begin dreaming (more than a feeling) Till I see Marianne walk away I see my Marianne walking away
So many people have come and gone Their faces fade as the years go by Yet I still recall as I wander on As clear as the sun in the summer sky
It's more than a feeling (more than a feeling) When I hear that old song they used to play (more than a feeling) I begin dreaming (more than a feeling) Till I see Marianne walk away I see my Marianne walking away
When I'm tired and thinking cold I hide in my music, forget the day And dream of a girl I used to know I closed my eyes and she slipped away She slipped away
It's more than a feeling (more than a feeling) When I hear that old song they used to play (more than a feeling) I begin dreaming (more than a feeling) Till I see Marianne walk away I see my Marianne walking away
(Beautiful song, listen to it. I apologize for the somewhat poor quality of the sound, and for the big hair, (lolol) but just concentrate on the music and it's all good)
Sunday, January 13, 2008
14:43:00
Well, just so happens that my first proper post on this new skin is also the landmark 150th post of this blog. I think I'd be much nearer to 200 if I updated on an almost daily basis, but I don't really like posts which are pure narrations of the events of the day... Can get abit boring, those.
So, yesterday I went to the Temasek Poly Open House. Not a bad place, everything looks nice and all. Still have yet to fully make up my mind, so I'll see what's what, but yeah, the place looks great, facilities and everything, you know? Took alot of brochures and all, too.
Also got UT3 on the same day, hahaha. But I have yet to install it cos WoW keeps pulling me in, lol. Questing like crazy, getting tons of money and everything... Feels really good. Probably gonna install UT3 after this post though, haha.
Anyway, I woke up this morning to the good news of Manchester United demolishing the shambles of a club that is Newcastle United, 6-0. It's not wise to sack your manager before going to Old Trafford, Geordies. Hahahah. A combination of all the nonsense Newcastle has been producing lately and the sheer brilliance of the United squad on song meant that Newcastle just got thrashed off the park. Also, this big win means we're on top of the table again, and also it earned me some crazy points on my fantasy league team, hahaha. I just wished I had put Ronaldo as my captain, lol.
Well, not much else has been happening, really. Just racking up the money working at my mum's shop, is all. Just wanna faster get my results, you know, get it over with, then move on with my life.
Well, till next time then. Cheers!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
23:25:00
Well, new skin. Like, finally man. I've had this blog for about a year and a half and this is the first time I've changed skin.
Anyhoo, just posting to 1) Announce that I've got a new skin (lol) and 2) To thank Mabel for helping me out in this. I'm a total noob regarding such things, so thanks Mabel! I really appreciate it!
Well, till the next time I have something meaningful to post about then. Cheers!
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
01:15:00
And so another year has come to pass.
2007 was interesting. Ups and downs, with the ups being incredibly high and the downs, well, not too bad.
That said, I have had it with secondary school, and am quite glad to be rid of it. Don't get me wrong, there were good points which I managed to find, and those will remain as such, good. However, the overall experience... Unsatisfactory.
As a result I look very much forward to the future. I have plans, and if circumstances allow them to be followed through, it would truly be amazing, and a fresh new start for me. I have had some choices to make in recent times, and I have to say, I'm happy with them. I just have to vindicate myself to certain people, but, more importantly, to prove to myself, once again, that I AM RIGHT.
It was done once before (for SYF 2007), and I will make it happen again. My mind works in ways truly alien to a vast majority, and I am grateful for the few who understand my quirks. But since my ways are appear to be 'weird', they are generally overlooked and/or dismissed. I've proved myself once before, I aim to do it again.
I have plans. Big plans. I think about my future nowadays. Most of my secondary school experiences, I'm throwing away. There's just something about this school and the environment... However good a neighbourhood school it is, it still is a neighbourhood school. Attitudes, environment and the like will always exist in similar amounts, no matter how good or bad the results become. I need an expansion of ideas, an opening of horizons far beyond what this area can afford me. Thankfully I have friends in such positions, and close friends at that too. I'll learn, and I'll do. My plans for my future are of the sort where, if it all goes to plan, could make me a very successful person.
I'm ready for the hardships. I want to get out of mediocrity. For now, I am surrounded by mediocrity, almost drowning in it. However, with glimpses at the possibilities I have decided to break away from this place, and the 'ideals', if you can call them that, that it holds.
Friends and good memories will forever remain, without a doubt. However, the life I dream of, the level of success I desire, cannot possibly be attained here. First chance I get, I'm moving to the East. It's not just the fact that the environment is more relaxed there, but rather, it's because the air of relaxation is one of successful retirement rather than plain laziness. It's remarkable, and I very much intend to be part of that.
I will always keep in mind the lessons I have yielded in my 4 years in Ang Mo Kio Secondary School. However, the main lesson is, Never Again. Never again will I make blind choices which I end up regretting. Never again will I just go with the flow if the flow is against my personal one. Never again will I allow myself to wallow in mediocrity.
I know what is best for myself, and I will try my best to get whatever I need, experience whatever I need. I have resources, but it's up to me to make use of them.
All that I leave to fate for now, is my O Level results. They don't need to be spectecular. Just let me go where I want, where I need. And I pray that it all works out for my friends too. If all goes smoothly, as planned, the next few years will be quite the treat. Please make it so. Please.
I intend to get up in this world. For too long I've been surrounded by narrow-minded (though not necessarily bad) people, right from the start. I want to break free, to widen my horizons, to be a worldly person. A successful, worldly person. I've gotten to where I am based almost purely on blind choices and ignorance. Not too bad, considering that, hah. Still, no more of that. Informed decisions from now on. I'll shape my life, and no one else will. Only me.
I just really hope the O Level results are kind to me and a few select individuals. This is, as of yet, the only factor which is up in the air. Everything else from the next step onwards (if the results are good, which I really hope they are) will be of my own making and based on nothing else. Please just let me have this, and I'll make good for it. I swear I will.
... At any rate, have a happy new year everyone. I've got my ambitions and plans. Perhaps it would be good if you make your own plans too.