Well, seeing as it has been a whole week since I posted, I might as well keep the blog alive.

I don't intend to post much these days. I need to study.

Anyhoo, life's been quite sian... Nothing much happening, really. School's getting better, but I'm still not going crazy over it, lol. Just taking things as they come, studying and going all the way for the O Levels. Can't slacken anymore. I've had it with poor results. Had it.

On an unrelated note, it's really quite... intriguing, knowing people under their respective surfaces. It can be quite a startling, surprising affair. At the very least, it's very interesting. Outside appearances really don't count for anything, at least not towards determining a person's true character.

While it may or may not be nice to experience someone's 'real' character, it is by all means, to me anyway, very interesting. Why would they have such an exterior? To compensate for something? To provide an alternative to themselves, an alternative away from who they really are? It's all very, very interesting.

Perhaps I should become a psychologist/psychiatrist. It'd certainly provide me with a more-than-sufficient number of case studies. That's a career worth considering.

Well, at the moment I'm totally hung up over this song. Blondie's a great band, and this is just one of their many good songs. I have no idea why I'm so hung up over this particular song anyway, I just am, lol. Well, till next time then (probably next week).

Blondie - Maria

She moves like she don’t care
Smooth as silk, cool as air
Ooh, it makes you wanna cry

She doesn’t know your name and your heart beats like a subway train
Ooh, it makes you wanna die

Ooh, don’t you wanna take her?
Wanna make her all your own?

Maria
You’ve gotta see her
Go insane and out of your mind
Medina
Ave maria
A million and one candlelights

I’ve seen this thing before
In my best friend and the boy next door
Fool for love and fool of fire

Won’t come in from the rain
Sees oceans running down the drain
Blue as ice and desire

Don’t you wanna make her?
Ooh, don’t you wanna take her home?

Maria
You’ve gotta see her
Go insane and out of your mind
Regina
Ave maria
A million and one candlelights

Ooh, don’t you wanna break her?
Ooh, don’t you wanna take her home?

She walks like she don’t care
You wanna take her everywhere
Ooh, it makes you wanna cry

She’s like a millionaire
Walking on imported air
Ooh, it makes you wanna die

Maria
You’ve gotta see her
Go insane and out of your mind
Medina
Ave maria
A million and one candlelights

Maria
You’ve gotta see her
Go insane and out of your mind
Regina
Ave maria
A million and one candlelights

Maria
You’ve gotta see her
Go insane and out of your mind
Regina
Ave maria
A million and one candlelights

Maria
You’ve gotta see her
Go insane and out of your mind
Regina
Ave maria
A million and one candlelights





Anonyman.

Just a short drop-in sorta update here..

My throat's better but I'm still groggy and stuff from the meds. I'll be back to normal by monday, I'm sure.

In any case, I just watched this video twice in a row and saw myself actually shedding tears of joy. I have always been, am, and will always be, a Man Utd fan. What an amazing season that was, what an amazing last few minutes that was. What a fitting ending to the finest season of Man Utd's history.






Anonyman!

So I'm sick at home, having caught my brother's blocked nose/sore throat/coughing/whatever the hell it is illness.

Probably going to check it out tomorrow at an ENT specialist... My throat's burning, dammit.

Anyhoo, Presentation Night has come and gone. Just like that, in a short 15 minutes, the epilogue of my band life was written. Couldn't have ended much better, either. Finished my tenure playing two of my favourite band pieces, with a bunch of fantastic people around me. Brandon... Eugene... James... My section... And with seniors in the audience too. Tres Magnifique.

It has to be said, it struck me how much things have changed since I first got in to the band, when Glenn came around on Saturday, unannounced, just to watch the band. 3 1/2 years ago, I was silent as a mouse around him, or almost anyone for that matter. Fast-forward to the present day, and I'm talking to him like an old chum. It's amazing, eh?

Even now, when I've completed my tour of duty, I still miss my seniors. Liangyun, Glenn and Yu Qing especially, and Li Zi too. Truth be told, no one can ever really understand what a senior, especially the Section Leader, goes through in his 'term in office', until one becomes the SL him/herself. I never understood the pressures and troubles of my seniors until I took up the post, and received an accelerated course in The World and Its Workings, with emphasis on Human Psychology. Similarly, Brandon is going through what I went through earlier in my life. He himself told me, 'Now I know what you went through'. And he's only mere months into his term!

Honest, no matter how much an SL tells his/her section about his/her troubles, none of them can actually really understand. It's something that has to be experienced before one can begin to comprehend.

I've become a cynical bastard as a result of it, but, as people who know me will know, I prefer unpleasant truths rather than pretty lies. As such, even though I'm now cynical, at least I know what lies ahead in life for me now. I'd rather have this than to go into the workplace and be shocked at how people work.

...Damn, I just went into another one of my 'insightful' posts without realizing it! I started with talking about Presentation Night and look what it turned into! Hahahahah! I can't believe myself. Well, I do let my mind float freely whenever I write, be it a composition or a blog post, although I do, of course, keep on track in compos.

Yesterday night was pretty fun, with the Senior 3 and an extra guest, haha. She's been educated in the ways of the LBJ now, lol! In any case, Brudders, as I said to Eugene, although we're finished with the band (not ENTIRELY, of course), we, as Brudders, will never finish. It's been a helluva ride, guys, and thanks for everything over the years. It has been truly enjoyable.

Arrivaderci, AMKSS Band. Long may you prosper.



Anonyman!

Has it really been close to a week since I last posted? Sure didn't feel that long to me. Maybe it's just cos I've had alot of stuff to do and alot of stuff on my mind recently.

Nothing much has been happening. Tomorrow's Presentation Night, and I'm happy for it and geared up for it, definitely, but for some reason there's just... some emptiness behind it. I'm not trying to cheapen the value of Presentation Night, far from it, but, it's just... something intangible. Something just beyond the human mind's comprehension, or at least mine.

I have no idea why, but I'm just a dissatisfied human being nowadays. Something's missing, I guess, but I can't for the life of me figure out what. I'm not emo, but I'm far from being a happy chappy. I wonder, what the hell is it?

Well, I'll just enjoy tomorrow then. Leaving you guys with another song.

Phil Collins - In The Air Tonight

I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord
I've been waiting for this moment, all my life, oh Lord
Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord, oh Lord

Well, if you told me you were drowning
I would not lend a hand
I've seen your face before my friend
But I don't know if you know who I am
Well, I was there and I saw what you did
I saw it with my own two eyes
So you can wipe off the grin, I know where you've been
It's all been a pack of lies

And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord
I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh Lord
I can feel it in the air tonight, oh Lord, oh Lord
And Ive been waiting for this moment all my life, oh lord, oh lord

Well I remember, I remember don't worry
How could I ever forget, it's the first time, the last time we ever met
But I know the reason why you keep your silence up, no you don't fool me
The hurt doesn't show; but the pain still grows
It's no stranger to you or me

And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord...





Anonyman!


Ever wondered how it's like to score a goal?

Especially after trying so hard the whole match?

I don't know why I'm saying this either, but I suddenly thought of such a situation.

Sure, it's just a game of football, you could say that.

But it's a pretty damn good metaphor for life. And a reason why I react the way I do in certain situations.

People who've seen me play know I set pretty high standards for myself. And when those standards are not met, I react angrily, in frustration towards myself, and sometimes to surrounding factors, if there are any. Now, here's a thought:

When you finally score that goal, how does it feel?

That's a question whose answer need not be said, for it is blindingly obvious.

What I really mean to hit at, though, is: I wonder why the effort is doubted, taken for granted sometimes, if not 90% of the time?

I'd have more respect for the sub-standard player who puts in 110% but does nothing significant than for the player who happened to be in the right place at the right time and puts home a hat-trick, although he hardly ran at all during the whole match.

The end product is important, make no mistake about that. But, what really should be the main thing, is the effort behind it all. The heart and soul. And, I really mean heart and soul. To the extent where your life is turned upside down, where you begin to have second thoughts, where you want to give it all up, as much as you shouldn't and can't.

But then there's the magic line. Despite it all, despite all the second thoughts, you stick it out anyway. It's a job. An arduous, painstaking, motherfucker of a job. But you stick it out, you give your all, you sacrifice. People who do this, they're the ones who receive my utmost and undying respect.

Sacrifice, for that matter, is of different quantities for different people. What may seem easy for you to sacrifice, may not be so for another person. Everyone has their limits. Those that push their personal limits, those are the heroes. Limits are not set by someone else. They are set by oneself. Of course, don't make them ridiculously easy. But in any case, when you're pushed to the end of your tether, and you still survive and pull it through, through your own willpower, you deserve anyone and everyone's respect.

As such, anyone who hasn't been through the life-changing experience of being pushed to their limits has no right, none at all, to judge those who have. Any judgements made would be empty, devoid of any real value.

Look around you. For sure there are people like that around. They might laugh, might smile, might have fun and kid around, but know that, deep in their souls, they have done it. Cherish those people, don't let them go to waste in your minds, clouded by short-sighted, narrow-minded judgements. Look at them, think of what they've done, not only for others, but, more importantly, to their own well-being for the sake of the greater good. If you've had your life changed, by yourself, as well, you would have found another friend. If you haven't, aspire to be one of them. You know your own limits. Push them. Push them to breaking point. 'Kill' yourself, and let yourself be reborn, harder and stronger than before, like the phoenix. Push your limits, and yourself, to hell and back and to hell again. You'll be a better person for it.

... Okay, I'm back to normal. I'm not sure why I suddenly felt like writing all that, but you know me, inspiration strikes at the oddest of times. That said, I'm not referring to any particular people, although, yes, it can be applied to several situations in my life. I just feel that this is how we should treat, or judge people, based on what they've done, not on the surface, but deep beneath that, down in the bottom of their souls, what they've changed in their very own basic nature. Not easy, that.

All in all, food for thought, eh? Anyone who reads through the whole thing, do have a little think about it, if only to work your brain a little, haha.

Well, nothing much happened today. Got back the English Compo Common/Mock (I don't know what it is, exactly) Test. Got an A1, real happy about that. Fulfil my potential, that's what I gotta do in English.

Well, I get to skip a few lessons again, tomorrow. However, I'll still have that E Math Vector test. Will probably do alright, not sweating too much over it.

I still can't get over the weird timing of my inspirations. Yet another facet of me I can't quite fathom just yet. Oh well, my unpredictability is another part of my enigmatic personality. Boon and bane at the same time, and I'm embracing it. =)

Well, till the next post then. Cheers.



Anonyman!

Wouldn't It Be Good - Nik Kershaw

I got it bad
You don't know how bad I got it
You got it easy
You don't know when you got it good
It's getting harderJust keeping life and soul together
I'm sick of fighting
Even though I know I should
The cold is biting
Through each and every nerve and fibre
My broken spirit is frozen to the core
Don't wanna be here no more

Wouldn't it be good to be in your shoes
Even if it was for just one day
And wouldn't it be good if we could wish ourselves away
Wouldn't it be good to be on your side
The grass is always greener over there
Wouldn't it be good if we could live without a care

You must be joking
You don't know a thing about it
You've got no problem
I'd stay right there if I were you
I got it harder
You couldn't dream how hard I got it
Stay out of my shoes
If you know what's good for you
The heat is stifling
Burning me up from the inside
The sweat is coming through each and every pore
Don't wanna be here no more

Wouldn't it be good to be in your shoes
Even if it was just for one day
And wouldn't it be good if we could wish ourselves away
Wouldn't it be good to be on your side
The grass is always greener over there
And wouldn't it be good if we could live without a care


Well, another song here then... It pretty succinctly describes my general overview of life nowadays... But of course, I'm remaining as positive as I can, as always. It's a kickass song too, so kudos all round! Hah!


Anonyman!


dropping in to update, but there really isn't anything to say!

life's so terribly mundane recently. i go to school, i come back, i play GTA, i do some work, (maybe go tuition, if i have), i eat dinner, i sleep. and on and on and on it goes.

i'm not really complaining. after all, i'd take mundane over hellacious anytime. but, still, everything's just really bland. bleah.

doesn't look like there's alot of things to look forward to either, in terms of dates. of course, there's the Presentation Night concert, but besides that... nothing, really. and National Day holidays, maybe. but that just signifies the start of the soon-after-that prelims, so... hahahah, not really that big of a thing to look forward to.

it's just as well i have GTA, otherwise my days would be too boring to handle.

random thing, i'm doing fine with Vectors so far in A maths. the kind of questions where you crack your head but in the end get the answer and feel immense satisfaction, that's what i'm doing now. haven't had this kind of feeling (especially from maths) for some time now.

well, that's all for now, i guess. really nothing to say. oh well, here's hoping i'll have more to say the next time i drop in. Cheerio mateys.

You can be anything you want to be
Just turn yourself into anything you think that you could
Ever be
Be free with your tempo
Be free be free
Surrender your ego
Be free be free
To yourself

-Queen (excerpt from Innuendo)



Anonyman!

ok, time for a proper post.

well, today was the 'first-day of school', at least for the sec fours, what with the first week being used for the Common Tests.

it was a pretty alright day, although it started odd-ish. my english is good, i know that, but i have no idea why Mrs Lai had to 'target' me so many times today. and by target, i don't mean in a bad way, but it was really weird nevertheless. lol. i'm still puzzled.

anyway, Chinese period meant some more Oral practice. not much happened there.

next was Chem. the classroom computer was so freakin' screwed (lag. the most ultimate of lags.) that we moved to that little room next to the library. Eu Hao's a pretty funny-ass dude, it was a pretty entertaining Chem lesson, haha.

History, well, Mdm Anantha didn't come today so we had a free period. worked Chinese Oral with Xun Hao, just going through the various in that stack of notes our Chinese teacher had given us.

Maths only lasted for half an hour for the 4/5 people; we had to leave early for lunch before our oral exam. a little more last minute revision before we went to our respective examination rooms. waiting outside was a very tense affair; we were all staring into space and just trying to calm ourselves down. when it finally came to my turn... well, the passage was alright, nothing too difficult about it. but the conversation topic! Jesus Christ Superstar, i got asked THREE QUESTIONS. and at the end when they asked if i had anymore to add on, i JUST COULD NOT THINK OF ANYTHING. no choice, just said that i didn't and left.

i wouldn't say that the conversation topic was exceedingly difficult, but it was far from easy, far from it. just hoping for the best for it. at least it's behind me now.

well, onwards with school. GTA: VCS is making things easier for me when i get home. i can destress with it. i wasn't even trying to get it, but my bro and i passed a game store on our way back from lunch yesterday and we decided, what the hey, let's see if they have VCS. lo and behold, they did, and we quickly got it.

it's been fun, so far, although the last action i did today before turning it off was to die and lose my progress of 3 Rampages done. i got greedy, tried to do a 4th. oh well, at least i remember where the locations for all 3 Rampages were, no problem doing them again.

well, time to take it easy tonight. feeling tired, i need to get used to the long hours of awake-time i'll be having now that school has restarted. also gotta fit in time for revision, can't afford to play around anymore. till next time then!



Anonyman!

Rod Stewart - Some Guys Have All The Luck

Chorus:
Some guys have all the luck
Some guys have all the pain
Some guys get all the breaks
Some guys do nothing but complain

Alone in a crowd on a bus after work
And I’m dreaming
The guy next to me has a girl in his arms
My arms are empty
How does it feel when the girl next to you
Says she loves you
It seem so unfair when there’s love everywhere
But there’s none for me

(chorus)

Someone to take on a walk by the lake
Lord let it be me
Someone who’s shy
Someone who’ll cry at sad movies
I know I would die if I ever found out
She was fooling me
You’re just a dream and as real as it seems
I ain’t that lucky

(chorus)

All of my friends have a ring on their finger
They have someone
Someone to care for them it ain’t fair
I got no one
The car overheated
I called up and pleaded
There’s help on the way
I called you collect you didn’t accept
You had nothing to say

(chorus)

But if you were here with me
I’d feel so happy I could cry
You are so dear to me
I just can’t let you say goodbye


well, kind of a rushed post. i got to get to tuition soon. anyway, just felt the need to post this song, heh. nice song, and the lyrics... heh.

well, i'm off then. Seeya dudes!



Anonyman!

Queen - Who Wants To Live Forever

Theres no time for us
Theres no place for us
What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away
From us

Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever....?

Theres no chance for us
Its all decided for us
This world has only one sweet moment set aside for us

Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?

Who dares to love forever?
When love must die

But touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips
And we can have forever
And we can love forever
Forever is our today
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?
Forever is our today

Who waits forever anyway?

Anonyman.

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