God-DAMN i'm tired. but it's a happy sort of tired. or at least, feeling better than i have been the past few days.

turns out the SS test was a practice one in the end, so it's just as well that i hardly studied. should be able to pass, by virtue of my SBQ, but still, i'm expecting a horrible score =/

also had a surprise english mock compo test in the first period. Not too bad, i suppose. still, i'm not entirely sure if i was descriptive enough. hm... oh well, leave it to the hands of fate.

Bio lesson was quite farcical... half of the lesson was spent 'filing'... and that's not because we had alot of papers or that alot of our files were a mess. rather it was just... well, you know the sort of lesson where time flies by without you knowing it, particularly because you weren't really doing anything important at all, basically just talking? yea, this lesson was like that. had a mighty good laugh with Louis and Wen Yuan over the listening compre thing, lol. damn, that was good. lol.

maths seemed to breeze by too. today was pretty cool, come to think of it. after school, went to band room. i helped out with drills, particularly with Daryl, who was taking the Sec2s. mostly i just stood by, pointing out any mistakes and stuff like that. i did take them for a short while, in the process getting more familiar with some commands i didn't use to use alot.

after the band was dismissed, it was time for good ol' soccer, with Daowei, Shao Jie, Eugene and James. played the game format of 'whoever scores becomes keeper', and we tried to do some crossing. the floor was wet and the ball was soft, so the game was definitely conducted in un-ideal conditions, but hell, who cares. i scored a good header and managed to pull a cheeky one on Daowei for the last goal before we went home.

tomorrow, another day of Conquer O. it'll be alright, i suppose. after school there'll be full band for Recollection pieces. basically just gotta brush up on a few songs, and look at some others which i used to play different parts, Heatherwood Portrait for example. I used to play 3rd in that. will decide if i'm gonna play 1st this time. well, that's basically it for tomorrow.

getting back on track in studies, gonna enjoy myself with band (drills/recollection practices, where there's no pressure) and spending time with the old mates from band. never realised how much i missed their company till i started hanging out with them again. never take your friends for granted, people. you'll regret it if you do.

Well, that's it for now. Chiong for studies, and chiong for recollection pieces! Booyakasha!

(LOL what the fuck am i thinking, 'Booyakasha'. lol)


Anonyman!

well! been some time since i last blogged, hasn't it. i see that blogger's not screwed up anymore too, jolly good. lol.

anyway... not much has happened over the past week, really. by that, i mean that, yes, stuff has happened, but nothing which has had any really big bearing on me.

nothing's really happening in my life. i guess i'm boring that way, but i am who i am. i did go out with the section to celebrate (belatedly) yan ling's birthday yesterday. went to KBox for the first time in my life. pretty alright, i guess, lol. it's kinda embarrassing to spell everything out, but generally, a good time was had by all.

also, i've finally gotten my mitts on Scarface and the Godfather trilogy. have yet to see any of the Godfather movies, but i'm done with Scarface. damn, it's good. it's really good. my money wasn't wasted, definitely not.

now i just need to get a new PS2 controller. luckily i've still got quite sufficient funds, which have been slightly boosted by my aunt giving me $60 as a (extremely) belated birthday gift.

i need some new games too. i'm getting bored at home, even (slightly) with the building of my killer squad in FM. my Man Utd team is really good. literally every position is covered in the following way: An automatic first-choice, the regular starter. this guy is followed by an experienced understudy, someone who can step in without any repercussions. lastly, a promising youngster. and this is just at the VERY LEAST. some positions have numerous players who are capable of starting regularly, and there is also no shortage of young players who can make it big. it's really crazy. this team has got bagloads of talent, and with longevity to boot. and i have funds of 290m, which i don't even need to spend anymore, considering the talent in the side. that money will just keep increasing then.

ok, i've bored enough of you with that, lol. well, Man Utd lost the FA Cup Final, 1-0 to Chelsea, with Drogba getting the goal on 116 minutes. a real kick in the teeth for me, but, well, at least we got the Premiership. that softens the blow a little.

the TJCSB concert was also today. not many people from AMK went, i was one of the (relatively) small number of people who did. was a pretty good concert, for sure an entertaining one. the stage band portion was hilarious, the script was well thought-out and executed. music-wise, they were impressive, and the tuba solo was a real eye-opener.

i basically spent the whole night with Brandon. no other people around anyway. had some good laughs, talked some serious stuff, generally had fun with the dude. i wish him every success with the section. any problems man, just ask.

i'm feeling alright, nothing of serious note. life's just stale at the moment. but this does not change the fact that i want to go back to the east. i just do not belong here. and several things over the past year and a half have made me lose all faith in the area. that's not to say EVERYTHING is fucked up, just that the cons far, far outweigh the pros. i've almost lost all faith in humanity as a result of what i've been through in AMK/Bishan. yes, that sounds over-dramatic, and it definitely is exaggerating on my part, but i'm not sure how else to put the message across. even some of the best things i've experienced turn out to be downright disappointments in the end. too many of those already. also, i've had just about fucking enough with all the stupid little nonsensical shits like backstabbing, talking downright bullshit about other people and other such fucked up nonsense, more so when the other person HAS DONE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DESERVE SUCH TREATMENT. all people who actually pull this kind of shit should just DIE, RIGHT NOW. no fucking kidding, i mean it. just die, assholes.

not that i've undergone such treatment in recent times (and, as far as concrete evidence goes, i have yet to undergo such crap, but anecdotal evidence suggests the opposite), but i don't believe ANYONE, young or old, guy or gal, gay or straight etc etc should receive such shit, unless they themselves are really that fucked up. so, i reiterate, those people who actually pull this kind of nonsense, kindly go fucking die already.

well, last week of school before THE HOLIDAYS come. can't wait for them, i could do with a break from waking up so goddamn early every monday to friday. gotta study, but i'll take that in my stride.

things to do in the hols:

-Study

-Rest up

-Meet old pals

that's basically it. that last one there applies to primary school peeps as well as the old guard (Brudders) of the AMK band.

last week. get it over with, Winston.


'Fuck it, I don't need that shit in my life! You die, motherfucker!' - Al Pacino as Tony Montana in Scarface, 1983.



Anonyman!

There's really nothing I can say at the moment to really change things, but bro, take care of yourself man.

Don't let your brains go to waste. Study hard, get good results, get into your desired course, and make her proud. I don't have a religion, but I do believe that she's watching over you. Make her proud to have had a son like you.

Take care man. I'm always available to talk or whatever.

Hm. Blogger's still screwed up. i wonder why.

anyway, i can't believe how much more intense the desire to go back to the East has grown these past few days. my heart really does lie there.

no offence to Bishan/AMK, none at all. i've made some fantastic friends here, alot of good memories, but still...

I want to go back, so bad man.

I know it sounds like i'm making a mountain out of a molehill, but, shite man, really wanna go back.

Stay there, and only come back to central now and then.


Anonyman

ok... blogger is really fucking with me... i can post but the whole 'create post' thing seems TOTALLY skewed.

but whatever. what's most important, is that Manchester United Football Club are Premier League Champions, once again! i'm happy as hell, it's been 3 long seasons since we last won the title, and it's about time!

i was tired last night, and wanted to fall asleep, but just couldn't, not with Arsenal and Chelsea tied at 1-1. i just kept awake on adrenaline until the message came in that at full time, the score was 1-1.

this was 1am in the morning, and i was jumping around in my room. pretty crazy, lol.

well, i have serious doubts over whether we can retain the title next season, but i'm enjoying the here and now, that's for sure. there's still the FA Cup Final, and our next league game against Chelsea will serve as a pre-cursor to the Wembley showdown.

well, besides the euphoria of the title win, i also had a bio test today. i think it was alright, nothing much to say about it.

tomorrow's another day. i'm tired as heck, off to bed now. goodnight, people.



Anonyman, Man Utd supporter

Okay, post No. 100.

Hm, doesn't really have that celebratory ring to it, does it? Oh well, doesn't matter. I think it's the song that's playing on my iTunes now (Hourglass, by Liquid Tension Experiment). mellow stuff. speaking of LTE and Dream Theater, I'm currently hooked on them. Mike Portnoy is a genius, and the whole feel of their songs is also very interesting.

Well, I'd just like to use this post to thank a few people who've helped me through some troubles recently. Of course, there's the old familiar face, Tommy. Cheers mate, despite your heavy-ass schedule you've chipped in. Hope everything goes smoothly for your JC spell. Thrash your A's, heh.

Then there's Eugene, who hasn't helped much but for perfectly understandable reasons. Brudder, I have no idea why all this is happening to you at the same time, and you certainly don't deserve it. I sincerely hope it all works out for you as soon as possible.

Shi Kai, haha. Sorry I can't tell you much man, but that's just the way it is. Thanks, nevertheless, for always sticking around man. Good laughs I've had with you; they certainly perked me up. All the best for Arsenal next season (so long as they aren't better than United, heh), and for your studies too. I'm pretty sure you'll be fine anyway.

I'm moving away from AMK people now. Boon, my good man, my best friend. You're one of the few people I know who hasn't changed one goddamn bit, lol. It's been 8 years man, and counting. Damn glad that I've managed to know you for so long. Keep gaming, keep supporting Arsenal, and also good luck for your O Levels. We'll see about getting a job together after then, eh? Haha, we'll see. Thanks for the talks too. Cheers mate.

Last, but certainly not least, Abygail. It's weird; we don't speak much, but when we do, it's as if we never stopped talking. And you've certainly helped the most in the matter. It's been great, really. We'll meet up some time. You gotta teach me A maths. I'll return the favour with History. lol.

For all who don't know, Boon and Abygail are primary school friends of mine, and just two of the very few I still keep in touch with. One's my best friend, the other's my best female friend from primary school.

Anyway, I don't have much to do nowadays. Pretty bored at home, though I do do some revision and stuff. I'm not so affected by that thing anymore, though I still insist that the stupidity ends, and very soon. If there have been any developments, please do let me know, dear friend. You know who you are.

Well, number 100 comes and goes just like that. Not too much to say, but I'm really thankful for all the above-mentioned peoples' help. I was certainly out of sorts for a pretty long period, but with these friends' help, plus the musical genius of Dream Theater/Liquid Tension Experiment, I'm back. Fully.

No. 101 next time then, heh. Cheers mates.



Anonyman!

well, back i am.

today was... odd. somewhat. especially after school.

the school day itself was fine, nothing special. played footy, had an alright game, but still not what i want, or need. pri sch friends and old brudders, that's what i need.

anyway, took my chem SPA during our free VE period (Ms Lew was absent again). i think i did alright overall, but one of the things, i think i screwed it up? i dunno. but a definite 1, at least. definitely not failing.

the interesting stuff starts here. i was supposed to be taking a makeup paper for the Chinese Paper 1 Common Test which i missed, but it was still early... and people were leaving the classroom already (for English remedial), so the classroom was empty. yeah. i didn't fancy sitting in the dark, or with other people walking around wondering why i'm sitting in the dark, so i (oddly) went to the toilet for some peace and quiet, to stone for awhile. looking at it in hindsight, that's even weirder than sitting in a dark and empty classroom, huh. also, in hindsight, this sounds stupidly funny. lol.

well, the stoning only lasted for 10 minutes, then i started to head to the hall. when i got there though, it was empty. i would've expected tables and chairs to have been set up in exam-style (which was supposed to be the case). went closer, saw a notice outside the hall. apparently they moved the exams to the Sec3 classrooms. 'okay...', i thought, as i headed up. when i got there, all i saw were students from other schools (who came to mine to take the paper) and the Sec3 higher chinese students, who were taking their papers. confused, i was. asked one teacher, Ms Clarise Wong, i believe. she told me to wait for Mr Koh Chee Keong. i didn't have to wait long, he came just a minute or two later. after asking him, it seems that either i'll be taking a re-test with just my own chinese teacher invigilating (i don't know how) or i'll just be given a C grade. hell, with my chinese the way it is, i ain't too bothered with that. lol.

as a result of all this hullaballoo, i got to go home much earlier than expected. the paper was supposed to be till 5, so i expected to be home around 5.20+. in the end i got out even earlier than my classmates who only had a 1-hour remedial. crazy shit. lol.

decided to walk back in the rain. light rain, so it wasn't too bad. just wanted time to think and enjoy my iPod music (i get into that sorta mood sometimes). on the way back some old Indian woman told me to let her know if I found her wallet, or met someone who did. the only clue she gave me is that she lost it while walking along Jalan Kayu. ok, lady, how does that help in my quest? i just gave a confused 'orh' before moving on. if this were the sort of hints given in quest briefings in RPGs, i'd be swearing at the creators. REAL helpful clue there, Mr Baggintwits, i can find your dragon's scale now just by looking ALL OVER THE GODDAMN GAME WORLD.

Christ, my brain's not working right. that humour up there seemed funnier in my head =/. oh well, time to take a break. eventful day, in a weird sorta way.

next post is Numero 100! hm... what should i post to justify it being the milestone post... i think i know. and on top of that, i'll post it in perfect english. in the sense that when i refer to myself, it won't be an 'i', it'll be an 'I'. fuck, i'm bored. lol. but anyway the content'll be good.

at least it SOUNDS good in my head. hope it comes out as good.



Anonyman!

Dream Theater - As I Am

Don't
Tell me what's in
Tell me how to write
Don't tell me how to win
This fight
Isn't your life
It isn't your right
To take the only thing that's
Mine

Proven over time
It's over your head
Don't try to read between the
Lines
Are clearly defined
Never lose sight of
Something you believe in

Takin' in the view from the outside
Feeling like the underdog
Watching through the window
I'm on the outside
Living like the underdog

I've been trying to justify you
In the end I will just defy you

To those who understand, I extend my hand
To the doubtful I demand, take me as I am
Not under your command, I know where I stand
I won't change to fit your plan, take me as I am

As I am

Still
Running uphill
Swimming against the current
I wish I weren't so
Fucked
Feels like I'm stuck
Lost in a sea of mediocrity

''Slow down,
You're thinking too much
Where is your soul?''
You cannot touch
The way I
Play
Or tell me what to say
You're in the way
Of all that I believe in

Takin' in the view from the outside
Feeling like the underdog
Watching through the window I'm on the outside
Living like the underdog

I've been wasting my breath on you
Open minds will descend upon you

To those who understand, I extend my hand
To the doubtful I demand, take me as I am
Not under your command, I know where I stand
I won't change to fit your plan, take me as I am


totally in the mood to scream the lyrics of this song out. kickass song. it's the one in the 2nd video of the 'i wanna learn drums, for shit like this:' segment of my last post. awesome guitar, as always with Dream Theater, and absolute godlike drums from the master that is Mr Mike Portnoy.

song really describes a large portion of my life. that, plus the fact that it's one of the best songs i've heard in some while (fresh-ness of a song plays a part), makes this THE song for me, for some while yet. once Alex can send it to me, it'll definitely be receiving alot of playtime on my iPod.


Anonyman!

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