I think some of my friends do wonder why I like rock music so much, and more towards the hard rock side at that too. in case you guys didn't know, above all else, i like the kind of rock played by bands who are driven by the 'Sex, Drugs and Rock N' Roll' philosophy.

i know it sounds weird for me to have a borderline idolism (is there such a word? heh) of such a philosophy, it being obviously not-really-on-the-right-track, in terms of how we should live our lives and our morals and ethics and etc. but i don't know, i'm just attracted to this style of music, one of extreme decadence (in terms of how the band members go about their personal lives) and potential (and extreme) volatility [as is (or was, heh) the case with Guns N' Roses]. i think it's just the whole feel of it.

music such as this also shapes how i am, somewhat. for example, i used to be really frightened about how i play in band practices, to the extent of tensing up and screwing up as a result. ever since getting into this kind of music, however, that feeling has slowly faded away, and an attitude of 'i'll do my best, but fuck if i'll ever let my performance drop due to fear' has taken its place. haha, i don't know, but that sounds pretty good, don't it? haha. now i just gotta get my own skills up then we'll talk about other things, but at least my attitude is without fault, as far as this is concerned.

well, guess i just felt the need to post something like this, for some reason. inspiration for my posts come at all sorts of weird times. hahah, i embrace such unpredictability though. unique little me. hahaha. alright mates, i'm off. enjoy the vid, see what i mean in what i said in the previous few paragraphs.

Anonyman!

ps. if the phrasing of a few sentences, or even the whole post for that matter, sounds weird, i'm sorry, but it is already 11pm and i've had a pretty long day. my brain's swtiched half-off already, haha. cheers mateys!

The Ocean
by Led Zeppelin



(We've done four already, but now we're steady. And then they went... 1... 2... 3... 4...)

Singing in the sunshine, laughing in the rain
Hitting on the moonshine, rocking in the grain
Ain't no time to pack my bag, my foots outside the door
Got a date, can't be late for the high hopes hailla ball.

Singing to an ocean, I can hear the ocean's roar
Play for free, play for me and play a whole lot more
Singing of the good things and the sun that lights the day
Singing to the ocean, has the ocean lost its way.

Sitting round singing songs til the night turns into day
Used to sing on the mountains but the mountains washed away
Now I'm singing all my songs to the girl who won my heart
She is only three years old and it's a real fine way to start.



I'M BAAAAACCK! hahah, i'm back in my groove, feeling how i should. this is just awesome, and i have my brudders to thank. thanks eugene, brandon and benjamin. laughs and more, all i needed to be back to myself. extra thanks to eugene for the chat last night, cheers mate!


the above song, i think you can tell that it's a cheerful song, and if you listened to it, you would be able to hear my pure joy right now.


maybe i'm only feeling this good cos i've been feeling like absolute crap the past few days, but hell, i welcome this wave of pure goodness washing over me.


i'm back! and as far as i can, i'll never go again =)






The Revitalized Anonyman!

And So It Goes
by Billy Joel


In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows



this is one beautiful song. oddly enough, it applies to my current situation, though i didn't mean to pull such a thing. well, food for thought, i suppose.


my head's killing me. this migraine is killing me. the thoughts running through my head are killing me. don't be mistaken, it's not just about relationship stuff. i'm not gonna get so bogged down by that alone. combination of various factors is killing me, in my head. i need respite. but how, and from where?


i'll have to find it myself. hope the following lines will be how i feel when i get back on track.


Back in black, I hit the sack/ I've been too long, I'm glad to be back - ACDC's Back In Black




Winston.

so it finally happened. it's all really surreal, how things are turning out.


i need to keep my own emotions in check. hope nothing ever goes wrong in the friendship (that's the most important thing, which is why i typed it in bold, heh).


this is really weird, it is. i don't know what exactly to think now.


Christ, i really hope nothing goes wrong, not because of this. i really hope nothing goes wrong.


Apprehensive? i would say that's an understatement at the moment. i'll see how things go. not expecting any spectecular results, anyhoo. i just hope the worst possible scenario doesn't occur, EVER.



I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round/ I really love to watch them roll/ No longer riding on the merry-go-round/ I just had to let it go - John Lennon's Watching The Wheels




Winston.

I think I might have just hit my exhaustion limit for the time being.


No one's fault, just pure fatigue on my part.


good news today, is that i've finally gotten an A1 for an A Math test, heh. granted, it was a simple one, but it feels good nevertheless.


also got to see the juniors today. overall not bad, considering it's been only their 2nd practice. my trainers need to be more hands-on though (are you guys reading this?! haha).


shite. i'm really exhausted. i need a break.





Like a fool, I fell in love with you/ You turned my whole world upside down - Eric Clapton's Layla



Anonyman.




ps. that last line, the lyric one, is not meant in a bad way. rather, it's meant to be said in a good way. hope you readers get what i'm trying to say. heh.

Everything I need, I have.


However, there's one more thing to make my life complete, yet it really is quite unreachable. Circumstances dictate decisions. I guess the only hope is one for circumstances to fall favourably for me.


Then again, it's probably never going to happen.





Any way the wind blows, doesn't really matter to me. - Queen's Bohemian Rhapsody






Anonyman.

ok, i know i haven't been updating, but then again the past few days haven't been any great shakes either, and i've been so tired lately at that too. nevertheless, here's a short little insight into the past few days of the life of yours truly.


well, the main thing (although it in itself is pretty minor) that has occurred to me recently is the sudden, but very much welcome, oncoming feeling of studying hard. after a wake up call involving me forgetting test dates (yes, stupid. but i had been out with a fever, give me a break. lol), i suddenly have gotten back to the habit of studying, one that i discarded what seems like an eon ago. i'm really fired up to study when i need to now, and it's just as well, considering that this is the O level year. yay to me. lol.


besides that, the juniors have come in. we have 3, and one is DARYL'S BROTHER. LOL. i don't know why but i'm finding this extremely hilarious. well, i haven't got the chance to see them yet, what with my recent busy schedule, but i'll be around to talk a look soon enough.


hm. nothing much else then. well, i'm just really happy with myself that i have 'rediscovered' this studying thing, and i'm ready to take on anything else that life throws at me this year. here we go here we go!





Anonyman!

i just realised a new meaning i can take from me being Number 5.


you see, i take the number 5 because of the footballers, Rio Ferdinand and, more importantly, Franz Beckenbauer. they are/were both central defenders, but i relate the origins of my liking for the number more towards Beckenbauer. why? cos he became famous in the 'attacking sweeper' role, which is a role i play in and certainly appreciate the most.


however, this 'new meaning' i've just realised has more to do with the 'sweeper' part of 'attacking sweeper'. i, being the SL of my section and thus responsible for them all, am almost like a sweeper, metaphorically-speaking, when it comes to the section. i hang around at the back, spotting any mistakes, and clear them up. also, Beckenbauer was captain of the successful German national team of the 70's, so the similarities just keep coming.


it really is inspirational to me, being able to link 2 of the most important things in my life in such a way. it's a new driving force now. i'm more motivated than ever. i'm never going to give up on them, and i don't ever want them to give up on themselves either. i'll make sure that happens.


My Style Will Bear Fruit.


damn right it will. damn right.





Anonyman, squad number 5


Undisguisable yet Unfathomable.




you guys have a little think who it is I'm describing. the answer isn't obvious, not at all. heh.




Anonyman

Just call, and I'll be there.

right then, the Anonyman is back.


let's see. the past few days haven't been any great shakes, really, and nothing of any particular note happened, save for the auditions for the band. pretty repititive stuff, but i kept up a professionial veneer and remained cheery and stuff throughout the 2 days. it does get wearisome after you repeat the same line for 50 times in a row. nevertheless, it's definitely tons better than class, so i'm not gonna complain heh.


if any of u guys are wondering if there were any potentials or anything like that, then yea, there were a few. but i'm not that... um... crazy about it all. some good guys and some interesting prospects, but at the end of the day it's BT's decision, so i'll see how things go and help brandon out with whoever we get.


hm, what else. oh yea, the canteen stalls are up and running again, with noticeable added safety precautions, masks and gloves and so on and so forth. doesn't matter to me. all that does is that the western food stall is back. their fried rice rocks ass, and it's so damn cheap too lol. ate it during both breaks we had during the course of the auditions (over the course of the 2 days).


well, life's been good to me so far since the start of school i guess. i'm just knackered as hell these few days. today wasn't too bad. after prac in the morn, the guys came to my house to play. they just left not too long ago, after we had dinner.


i think that's it for now. nothing much to say anyway =/.





Anonyman, No.5

yea, i'm back and i'm updating, but there's nothing i want to say but these following words:


Compromise and Balanced Thinking. the two things which would lead this world to being a much better place.


think about it. too few people practice it. too few.




Anonyman.

well. i'm only blogging now cos i only got home at...3.30am, i think, yesterday (or this morning, if u want to split hairs heh).


went to have the dinner we planned. instead of 4 girls however, they dropped out one by one till only Mabel and Joycelin were left. throughout dinner, we (the guys) made a truckload of stupid and funny jokes, and made the girls laugh too. the stuff we did, so freakin' ridiculous lol. example; taking peaches makes u a bitch, and taking papaya makes u an asshole. see how stupid that is? lol. anyhoo, there was lots more where that came from, and dinner itself was a fun affair.


in the end, we only left the restaurant 2 1/2 hours after first setting foot in it. crazy, innit. after a bit of dallying, we decided to tag along with the girls. they were meeting their classmates to go to Esplanade area there, see the fireworks and stuff. actually the 4 of us, under the circumstances, were very extra la, but we amused ourselves to no end. they went to play arcade, and we just sat at one corner, amusing ourselves by playing old 'hand games', like (er how to spell this lol) 'Zha', 'Zhi Ko Pa' and so on and so forth. even played that guessing number game, Eugene was champ with 8 wins, i was 2nd with 7, James was 3rd with 4, and Tommy was relegated with just 1 miserable win, LOL.


we went to Carrefour and acted stupid, doing all sorts of lame and dumb but yet, incredibly funny stuff. lol. Tommy zipping here and there, gaining invisibility with no cooldown and in 1 second lol. alot of funny stuff la. this all while waiting for those guys to finish with their arcade. man, i wish i could show these guys my PS2 skills. i would totally school them. lol, ok, random comment.


so we went to Esplanade, thereabouts. while the fireworks were nice, the crowd reaction was...somewhat exaggerated, i'd have to say. little bit only, 'WAHHHH'. real dumb lol. in any case, when it turned 12, i actually started thinking about the Brudderhood. i might as well go into it.


The Brudderhood is an exclusive organisation, made up of only a few people and one that is immensely difficult to get in to. currently, it's only official members consist of the following few people: Winston Zhang, Tommy Wong, Eugene Pang and James Lim. these few people have gone through hell and heaven together, and are much stronger for it. Membership into The Brudderhood isn't something you can just sign up for, it's something you earn.


anyway, what exactly i was thinking, is that with the ending of 2006, the organisation loses one of its most valued members in Mr Tommy Wong Yong Ping. it's just the few of us left now, and this really does sadden me, in a bittersweet way. i don't think we'll look to replace him, i'm guessing we'll let the Brudderhood go when we ourselves do, but we'll always remain good friends, for all we've been through together, right guys? tag my board if any of u read this heh.


anyhoo...after all the hullabaloo of the countdown and the fireworks, we started to head home, and that in itself is a massive task. whole place crowded like...hell. lol. after so long of thronging with the crowd, we made it to a bus stop, and had a hellacious time finding the correct bus. even when we did, the bus itself took a freakin' half hour just to get out of the immediate area, due to the crazy amount of human traffic.


the bus ride was so long, more so than usual cos of the jams here, there and everywhere. we went to our own devices on the ride. Tommy fell asleep, i listened to music on my iPod, James and Eugene played some more 'hand games' before just sitting back to relax. it was actually already 3 when we got to AMK central. Tommy took a cab home, James called his father to fetch him (at this sort of time lol), and Eugene and I walked home together. Once we went seperate ways, i took out my iPod, listened to the Chili Peppers' Snow [Hey Oh], and sang on my way home, in the dead of the night. i'm weird, aren't i. lol.


so i got home around 3.30am, and after bathing and just lounging for awhile, fell asleep at 4.30am, thereabouts. oddly enough i woke up at 9.30, lol. ladies and gentlemen, more proof that my biological clock is well and truly wrecked, lol.


today was boring as heck, i shan't go into it.


well. another yr has passed. it's been a heckuva year. i'm sad for some things and grateful for others. above all else, however, i'm grateful for my section, helping me end off my 2006 with confidence and happiness. besides seeing the section in such good form, this has provided me with vindication. i was highly suspicious and negative of my credentials as a leader, and of my abilities as a person, especially after the debacle of my BMA days. but the current situation of the section has left me vindicated, convinced and confident of myself as a person once again. also, another thing i'm grateful of is the Brudderhood. these guys have made this year a most memorable one for me, in the best of ways. thanks so much guys. we'll chiong together for SYF and O lvls in the coming year, won't we. yea, we will. i know it.


till next time then





Anonyman!, an immensely proud member of both the trumpet section and the Brudderhood

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